Saint and Sinner

The Seven Deadly Sins:

Pride

I take great pride in what I do. I pride meself on being among the best. I am proud of what I have acomplised so far in my life. I am also proud of myself, too proud many would say (and have). I don't take shit from people. I'll walk right up to them and tell them to go to hell. Only once in my life have I not done this and that was an expirience that still marks me and the wound that left me with will take a long time to heal. I often think the best of myself, maybe too often. That has landed me in trouble several times, yet I always seems to be able to get out of it with my pride intact.

Envy

I envy people who do better than me in the various disipines of life. I envy people who get better grades tham me, people who seem to manage their life better etc. I also envy people who do the thing I want to in the future, people working with what I want to work with.

Wrath

Wrath or anger or hate. I get angry at people. But that is not the part of this sin I want to discuss now. I hate people. Not everyone, there is not even a huge number of people I hate. Let me explain, I define people into catagories, people I like (you know if you are in this one), most people, and people I don't like. Now we look at the breakdown of the last one. It goes like this;
Indifrent - People I couldn't care less if anything happened to them or the people they love, Dislike - People I for some reason don't like, but not dislike enough to put them into another catagory. Detest (cool french word) - People who make me feel disgusted somehow, most likely because of how they acted or something they said. Most of the people I had problems with growing up are in this catagory. The people wh made me question the meaning of every look, every smile, every hug or touch. The people who crushed my dreams. Hate - People who have made someone I love feel bad. Like the woman who drove my sister crazy. Like the man that made my mother come home crying everyday for over a year. I hate them with every fiber of my being, I wish they burn in.. No, I don't, I wish that they will go through exactly the same as my mother and sister had to go through.

Sloth

I am lazy, let's just face that fact. Just the fact that I am writing this in stead of doing research for a paper, or doing math or chinese, both of which need work.

Greed

I want a good job so that I can make a lot of money to do the stuff I want. I think that greed is a very basic emotion. Just look at sqirrels, the biggest hoarder have enough for the winter time.

Gluttony

Take a look at me. Do you really think I woud look this way if I did not indulge in this sin?

Lust

Hehe. If you don't recognize this side of me, either praise yourself lucky that you haven't seen it yet or you don't know me well enough.

The Seven Heavenly Virtues:

Chasity

Lust and Chasity might seem like complete oposites, but they are not. At least in my head. Being chaste might also mean that you a sexual relationship with one person at a time. Or that you stay cheat on the person you are together with.

Moderation

I do moderate my using to a large degree. I try not to buy too many needless things or use exessive amounts of natural resourses. I can't say I am too good at it, but I try.

Generosity

I like spending money on the people I love. I don't mind doing favours. I like giving, it makes me feel better about myself. I hope all my freinds know that if they need someone to talk to, or a soulder to cry on I am here.

Labor

I don't mind working hard to get the stuff I want. There is stuff I want to do that require large amounts of work, like studying engineering or running a larp. I also try to maintain a high level of intergrity in my work. This is not only because of the Smith honor code, but also my personal honor code. I feel verybad about myself if people think I have cheated. I feel even worse if I actually have. I also try to present the best piece of work I can.

Patience

I'll wait to get what I want. I am not afraid of doing a bit of waiting, anyone who knows me know that I hate the idea of being late for something. I rather be way early than late, and way early normally means some time spendt waiting.

Charity

This one is closely related to generosity. I try to give to foundations such as Red Cross, and relief organisations. I know I have been very lucky in life, being born and rasied as a middleclass Norwegian citizen. I am among the luckiest people in this world. I try to do my little bit to help those that are not as lucky as me. Even if all I can to is donate money to various organisations that help, or write letters for Amnesty.

Modesty

I would consider myself humble, I respect those that I mean deserve respect. While I might seem to have no shame when it comes to my body, most of you know the truth behind that lie.

In short, I am not fully a saint or a sinner, I am only a human.