Loosing your self

Imagine, just for for a little time forgetting all the problems on your mind, forgetting who you are, where you are, who you love, who you hate, worries, essays to write, tests to fail, money, how far from home you are, people leavingh you forever. Imagine foretting. Imagine loosing your self just for a little time.

Some time ago a freind of mine (I am not naming them because I am not sure if this was meant asa secret or not) told me "I love this song. I had a freind whose mother was dying from breastcancer. We were on a girls trip, in a bar and this song came on, and for a few minutes my freind forgot her mother was dying."

Imagine forgetting it all.

This is one of the main reasons why I spin poi, and fire in particular. Those of you who know my internal struggles and problems last year, I guess you remember that I frecquently went spinning. I lost myself to the world. When I spin, it is me, the poi and the music, that is my existence. No troubles, no love problems, no tears, no fear. When I spin fire I get the feeling of conquring my fear on top of it all. Poi is a form of meditation that works extremly well for me. There is nothing on my mind. Not even the people that I think about almost every waking moment, only me. This summer, a few days before I left, my brother and I went spinning fire. For the hour we were out, we forgot that I was leaving, that it would be months untill we saw each other again. We were just us, doing something we love. I was just out spinning, since I can't use fire here I got hold of some LED poi, they are pretty cool. I spent half an hour spinning, and in that half hour I did not think about the chinese test tomorrow, my sucky writing, math homework, workshop, her, the money it will cost my family to get me home for christmas. I did not think at all beyond "I wonder if this works..." or "how did I do that..." Some times that is what you need.