I don't know why, but I am off. Every end of the year, ever since I heard Derek play this song at the end of year show my first year in Flekke. Strange to think of that that was now 3 years ago. I could have sworn it was two weeks. Yet so incredibly much have happened in those years, I grew up, I took resposibility, I graduated, I hurt, I felt betrayed, I felt more alone than ever before, I lost and found hope (and lost it again), I was a jerk, I broke the unwritten rules, I broke the written ones too, I lied, I was confused, I longed for home, yet found one some 3500 miles (Over 5600 km) away from where I am born, I drank, I laughed, I cried, I failed, I got back up on my feet, I disliked,I loved, I was loved, I argued, I traveled the world (5x3500 miles + 2x 5500 miles + 2x 420 miles), I found friends, I lost them, I packed down my life.

This time every year I become one of those people who live in boxes. My life is in boxes. My room is half packed down, half not, I have to do laundery, sell back my books, cash paychecks all of that joy, and I hope to be done by dinner so that the people who have said they would help me carry boxes (in exchange for sushi) can come over. I hope to take Claire out for dinner tomorrow. I want to pack and get done with it, but at the same time I don't, I want to keep this room. It is a very nice room, I have good memories from this room starting on the first night I was back. But no, I am moving room. Maybe it is about time. Change is good.

I am also starting to get nerves about Iceland, I am looking forward to it like a baby for christmas, but at the same time, I have not seen Bunny in two years. My head is spinning all these crazy why and if questions at me. It always do when I am going somewhere.

I am edgy, I know I have no reason to be, I am done god damn it (yes, feel free to curse me, I probably deserve it), but I can't stop. The tension on my internal strings is very high and I don't know why. All I know is that I don't want to be alone, yet I am close to breaking down and crying every moment. *sigh*

Well, will go brush teeth now and pack, maybe have a last cup of coffee before I pack down the coffee maker

In a week.

In a week I am going to to the green island. Ok, so not the Emerald Island bot another green spot in the middle of the Atlantic. I am going to see my 'evil' twin. I haven't seen her in two years. I don't know why I am nervous. But it is going to be great. I have always wanted to see Iceland. But more so I can't believe this fantastic year is going to be over in a week.

Todo before May 10th:
-MTH 204 self scheduled exam
-ENG 208 self scheduled exam
-MTH 153 take home (due on tuesday)
-CSC 106 Crit (on wednesday)

-Study/Work on all of the above

-Pack room
-Pack for Iceland and summer
-Do laundery
-Carry everything downstairs (people are helping me Yay!)
-Go to the brewery and have a beer(just because I need to do that sooner or later)
-Get I20 signed DONE
-Meet with Norwegian Students (tomorrow)

Study breaks today:
-At 4.3o to after dinner: Go down and buy snacks(read fruit, cheese and milk), jewlery time with Aprille, Take Madison out for Sushi, and lace Becca into my corset
-Later tonight: write fic for Ashlyn's amusement

Retting ready to go home.

Riddles:
Regural riddles today.
Dec 19
Ah! My breath doth shake,
My limbs are thin,
My belly aches.
Whiteness doth crown my head,
And the tracks I leave,
Are unsteady where I've led.
I look out through rheumy eyes,
And seem to say my last goodbyes.
The darkness doth draw me near,
I lean towards it - the better to hear.

Dec. 20
Voiceless it cries,
Wingless it flutters,
Toothless bites,
Mouthless mutters.

Dec. 21
My life can be measured in hours,
I serve by being devoured.
Thin, I am quick
Fat, I am slow
Wind is my foe.

Rant:
I am leaving in about an hour. Going to Anton's for the night and leaving from Boston tomorrow, then when I get home on the 22nd, I have a LARP party to go to. So I won't be home untill late night 22nd. I am so loooking forward to it. It is going to be great to see my family again. I have not seen my dad, sister or brother for 4 months, my larper freinds is even longer since I have seen. Yay for going home.

To-do within a week

Riddle:
I run through hills;
I veer around mountains.
I leap over rivers
and crawl through the forests.
Step out your door to find me.

Rant:
My plane leaves Boston in a week. I have a huge list of things to do:
Do Math Take-home test
Finish Engineering portfolio
Study for Chinese Final
Do Chinese Final
Buy Presents for Mom, Dad, Hope
Wrap presents
Figure out if I can fit all the stuff that needs to go home in one suitcase
Figure out my weight limit on the plane
Go to Reenacting the past dinner
Pack things to go home
Clean room
Sell books
Figure out if there is anything I need to go home
Find books to read on the plane
Go to CECE and weather proof the elephant
Set up card weave for the plane ride
Download podcast and podiobooks
Work
Have a plotting night with Kayleigh
Rework the world history for my larp
Return Marivic's fridge
Go to LARP
Sign up for Christmas dinner with Solgløtt

Yay..

Hangover and packing.

Now most of my packing is done. It feel strange, my bed is so empty. I am not used to packing to move out. I have actually never done that before. I have never moved out of somewhere before. A part of my life is now over, next year I am going to be one of the kings of the campus. Hehehe, I am looking forward to that, soemone to boss around, yay.
My head hurts, but is only servs me right. I hadn't been drinking untill mid april, when I turned 18. And yesterday I tried gin for the first time. It didn't taste too good, and burned like hell. And that was after a couple of Heineken, the best beer I have tasted so far. So I am feeling pretty sorry for myself at the moment. But yeah, I deserve it for being stupid. But this has to be learned the hard way I guess.