I am off academic probation... Got the letter today. Happy now!
This have been a truly hellish year for me, at least with academics. A year of stress, worry, insecurity, not feeling good enough for Smith and so on. The fact that I was having some friendship issues all the way through, I think Claire might be the only one that knows them all, didn't help. Truly hellish. But I will make this letter my turning point. In a way last semester was, but that was because that semester was an ultimatum, do better or leave. Next semester I am doing only four classes, two that are for my major. I will not allow myself anything below a A- in Astro, B+ in German and B in the two comp sci classes. If I get that then my GPA for that semester will be 3,25. I really hope I can do that.
Monday, June 09, 2008
Sunday, June 08, 2008
6.30 - cravings
It is 6.30 in the morning and I am awake.
It is 6.30 in the morning and I have been awake for an hour.
An hour ago: I woke up with a start. I was alone in my bed. Not really something to fret about I know, but on some level I had expected her to be back by now. She might be, she might be in her room. It took be half an hour to get my brain to work enough to remember that she had said she might be staying at Sib's. So now I don't know where she is, all I know is that she is not here. Again, not really anything to fret about, but tell that to my muddy brain an hour ago.
Now: I have a craving for coffee. Steamy warm freshly brewed coffee with a little bit of milk as I sit here and hear the world wake up. I wonder how early Starbucks opens on Sundays? If this had been back home in Norway I would so have had a mug of steaming coffee as I would be writing this. But then again, I wouldn't be writing this, because one of the things I crave for would be over 5000 km way (that is 5 000 000 meters. 5 million meters) and the other one I would have. Instead I have none, but they are relatively easy to get, both of them. I am really wondering about Starbucks now. I really want a big cup of coffee and there are worse places to write. But then again, I live in Northampton and people frown at you if you go there. And I did spend a lot of money yesterday. But... Coffee! Want! Actually what I really want is the oppertunity to make it myself, to cuddle up with a big cup of coffee and a warm cat on my stomach. And then use this time to catch up on my online reading, maybe write some myself and chat to friends. Yeah, that was how I spent my mornings last summer. Getting up at somewhere between four and five and talk to my friends. Now my friends are much closer. Yet some of them I talk to way less. Odd that. I think what I am craving is that entire package of friends close even though they are physically far away, coffee, good food and cats. Seems like I have opted for the lesser deal this year, huh? But then again, most of the time I don't thinks so. This is only the early morning ramblings of a tired coffee craving person.
Oh have I mentioned I want coffee? And cuddles? And how I am getting none right now...
It is 6.30 in the morning and I have been awake for an hour.
An hour ago: I woke up with a start. I was alone in my bed. Not really something to fret about I know, but on some level I had expected her to be back by now. She might be, she might be in her room. It took be half an hour to get my brain to work enough to remember that she had said she might be staying at Sib's. So now I don't know where she is, all I know is that she is not here. Again, not really anything to fret about, but tell that to my muddy brain an hour ago.
Now: I have a craving for coffee. Steamy warm freshly brewed coffee with a little bit of milk as I sit here and hear the world wake up. I wonder how early Starbucks opens on Sundays? If this had been back home in Norway I would so have had a mug of steaming coffee as I would be writing this. But then again, I wouldn't be writing this, because one of the things I crave for would be over 5000 km way (that is 5 000 000 meters. 5 million meters) and the other one I would have. Instead I have none, but they are relatively easy to get, both of them. I am really wondering about Starbucks now. I really want a big cup of coffee and there are worse places to write. But then again, I live in Northampton and people frown at you if you go there. And I did spend a lot of money yesterday. But... Coffee! Want! Actually what I really want is the oppertunity to make it myself, to cuddle up with a big cup of coffee and a warm cat on my stomach. And then use this time to catch up on my online reading, maybe write some myself and chat to friends. Yeah, that was how I spent my mornings last summer. Getting up at somewhere between four and five and talk to my friends. Now my friends are much closer. Yet some of them I talk to way less. Odd that. I think what I am craving is that entire package of friends close even though they are physically far away, coffee, good food and cats. Seems like I have opted for the lesser deal this year, huh? But then again, most of the time I don't thinks so. This is only the early morning ramblings of a tired coffee craving person.
Oh have I mentioned I want coffee? And cuddles? And how I am getting none right now...
Sunday, June 01, 2008
When I grow up I want to be Rufus Shinra
Because that means I get to have the TURKS working for me...
Friday, May 30, 2008
Hairs and stuffs.
What should I do to my hair when I bleach it? Vote here.
Now I am talking to my mom. It's been forever since we had our long chats. And I am getting all of the local gossip.
I just got all my grades.I am doing ok. I am quite impressed with myself. Looks like I should be good for next semester.
I am annoyed, more with myself than anything else. I want to run an rpg, doesn't need to be long, I just want to run it. I love GMing. It is very close to my heart. But I can't seem to make people interested in the games I want to run. I have not really run any games for the last two years, nothing past random oneshots. I want to have a longer standing campaign. ARG!
Now I am talking to my mom. It's been forever since we had our long chats. And I am getting all of the local gossip.
I just got all my grades.I am doing ok. I am quite impressed with myself. Looks like I should be good for next semester.
I am annoyed, more with myself than anything else. I want to run an rpg, doesn't need to be long, I just want to run it. I love GMing. It is very close to my heart. But I can't seem to make people interested in the games I want to run. I have not really run any games for the last two years, nothing past random oneshots. I want to have a longer standing campaign. ARG!
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